Cynny_Chans "PIRATE" Journal

THE GIG WAS AWESOME!!!

Tue, 30 Aug 2005 06:43:31 GMT

My compliments on my guitar playing was a relief, for I had practiced for 5 hours each day........yeh. Recording studio for 15 dollars a hour, YES!!! Anyways.........I want to to play another gig...yeh. I feel happy, thank you God for this joyous occasion...love you!

C.W. Angel

Our 4th gig.

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 04:11:08 GMT

YEAH!!! Gig is tomorrow, can't wait...seriously, can't wait. We are going to have a acoustic set with just a tambourine, guitar, bongos, yes and you guessed it COWBELL!!!!!! We practice it today and it was cool!!!!! I can't wait. Kind of nervous, but must get over it.

Tell you how it went after the gig tomorrow...and after the after party, kudos!!!!

with love and beans with rice.......Cynthia W. Angel

Tue, 23 Aug 2005 07:12:57 GMT

Being Rejected sucks.

I hate Fake people.

I have learned my lesson, I am now ready to die.

3rd times a charm, damn those "AAA" bateries....fuck them.

Meh

Tue, 16 Aug 2005 06:52:13 GMT

I haven't updated in a while, and I'm sad to say that I am now dead inside...alot of people hate me, so yeh. I haven't been eating anything, I mean, I work and when I get home I go to sleep and write music. My eyes hurt alot, and I hate false hopes. My stomach hurts, I have the urge to throw up and I want to escape this all. I want to leave here. Let's just say right now, that I am utterly terminated to everyone, including myself. I wish I was struck by a lighting bolt.

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 22:46:38 GMT

Seeing is the limit and the gig is on August 28th. This is gonna be fun. Violet Redemption now has a drummer....hehe. So happy. Can't wait.

Wed, 20 Jul 2005 22:51:41 GMT

gig and gig and gig. Yes gig. So many, all girl band.....this rocks. Demo out....we rock. Gigs around cali, yeh, thats just plain hot..I mean, heat hot. err...anyways, Craig and I will get married for the fact that I've seen his face before, I've seen him walking over, believe I want to know ya....yeawh.

Oh MAN!

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 22:17:35 GMT

Shallow and hollow inside. Why are people like that?

Ok, this really sucks. this guy who WAS in our band cheated us. He stoled our song Dingo, and claimed it as his own. He tought it to other people and made CD'S to pass out saying he copy written it. What a idiot. You can't copy right a song when you just record and burn it.....we have older recordings on my computer and the whole song written in paper. This other guy that hates liz and I also claims that he wrote the song. Gosh I swear, idiots!

We have our lawyers in this and we are gonna sue. Legal action will take place..nobody is to be trusted! Gosh, I swear. No more juvenils! Down to them all!

Speaking of more shallow people. Aaron is a dick head....he is like shallow hal, but without the butter. He claims to be so sexy and shit like that, but the only thing going for him is his semi Craig face. Aaron does like me, but I don't tolerate that crap. Gosh, I wasted my time for notthing, thats it, no more guys!!!!.............for now.

I made a list of things in which I want in a guy, and Aaron broke the Shallow list completly, he is at a -4 on my list. Guys like that, ew. Only going for whats outside not in. Loser. Anyways.

There is this guy who is going to do a instrument bit today, like the banjo, semi acoustic guitar, fiddle, etc. He is a musician junkie. This is gonna be cool.

Sometimes I wonder, if this is only it.....?

gig this sunday at 7 pm at the peking gourmat, nice.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 23:14:25 GMT

Yes, I am insanely liking this Aaron fellow, after talking to him for like 3 hours, it made me realize that he is the best person I have ever meet. Man, I think I want him even more than I already did. I can't stop thinking about him. It's funny. Gosh, why didn't I move in earlier.

Gig on June 26....gotta be there. I'm gonna play my Song "AA Bateries". It's a acoustic set song..it's gonna be awesome.!!!

Life on the Rocks.

Tue, 31 May 2005 21:02:23 GMT

If I would reccommend a album. It would be "Velvet Goldmine" the soundtrack, thats some good shit going on there. I'm so tired. Work and gigs are getting to me. I've gone phsyco on costumers and cut my hair off in front of them.
Ani, hehe...meet a star wars guy that looks like Anikin. He is hot. Haven't seen Aaron for a while...been to busy with 2 gigs and working 6 days a week. I love my check. I'm craving Mcdonalds...hmmmmm.......

Oh, I saw star wars and Ani happen to be there. This would be my 3rd time bumping into him. I talked, flirted and got a number. I liked the movie..it was awesome.

Can anybody recommend any good music??? I need some new tunes, listening to "New Order" alot made me change my song "AA bateries" alot.....damnit.

Tue, 24 May 2005 02:40:41 GMT

Gosh, I think I'm in love....so say my pals. Aaron, yes, he is back again. I talked to him yesterday, and I'm falling for him everytime I talk to him. He's face alone is worth my time...he is awesome. The personality is great, the music taste is great. He is 23 and man, I can't stop thinking about him. He seemed very very happy to see me......it was awesome, but after, I went back to work and hell broke lose. Some guy threaten my life over him thinking I stole 5 dollars from him.....man! Anyways, there was a baseball bat, fighting, and throwing stuff around involved. But, no matter how bad it was, Aaron was still there in my mind. Hymph, I wonder.

Oh yeh, I listen to Coast to coast with artbell, 6.40AM and man, aliens are real!!! Found in Brazil, there was a crash landing like in roswell, and civilians actually saw the aliens. One person touched one and put it on his lap, then he died 28 days later for disease's which are not found on earth, but only where the alien came from. (http://ufologie.net/htm/vargpic.htm) OR (www.coasttocoastam.com) All I can say, is that the aliens said something to a doctor while he was examing him. "We feel sorry for you humans, you can heal just like us, spiritual without tools and medicine, but you don't know how to help eachother. You can be great and intelligent like us, but you refuse to.".......man.....Latter.

Mon, 16 May 2005 19:45:19 GMT

1.Hrm, why do people show their stress to me.....like I am a witch doctor and I can just clear their problems. I hate that. really I do. Currantly, I applied at the most trendy store you can possible apply for. No other than Hot Topic. The manager likes me...I have kudos from that. I want a job that involves indoor, and not having to worry about people at gas stations they are so, errr. Yeh. Anyways, I saw a gig on Saturday, it was metal night, and we were there to support a metal band called Elixer. The band was really really wrong. They are hard core black metal and they pissed me off. Every body liked them and all they did was scream and roar. I hate that shit, the guys suck, their hair suck, and they suck all with it. I don't understand why some people like music that does not have any vocal hear hearing to it. No sense, no notthing.

2. I've been into New Order and bought their substance CD. I really wanted that song "Regret" by New Order...awesome song. I might go now and look for it and buy it. I love that song!

3.wow, there is this black guy what looks just like James Earl Jones.......awesome, makes me thing of Star Wars a little bit more, by the way, I got some shoe laces of star wars...hehe.

4. I still want Aaron...hehe. Gosh, don't I just take my time........because I'm soooo damn shy!

5. I drove Germ (Ben) home yesterday, he lives at wrightwood. Up in the mountains see. hehe. Anyways, my car started to Idol, and it freaked me out. It figures that when you reach higher elavation the idol changes. I didn't know that. I went to his house and we played and wrote some new songs and recorded them. He's a awesome young man. I tought him some spanish so he can get this one girl he likes. Nice.

6. I'm going back to school this summer, Tennis, advance guitar, painting and computer graphics is what I'm going to take. =D.

7. Seven, such a good number, but there is no number 7. Laters.

Time

Wed, 11 May 2005 20:50:34 GMT

I remember my hair was so long...........yeh.

Anyways, geez alot going on.....I worked 3 days in a row 16 hour shifts, swing and graveyard. The Graveyard guy decides not to show up to his shift because he had a little tummy ache....errrrr! I was pissed off and tired. But, I'm over it, after a saw Aaron before that. He thinks I'm asian..............hehe. It's ok, it happens, all the time. He is very hard to open up to people, he says I don't annoy him, so thats cool. OH I HAVE SOMETHING COOL TO TALK ABOUT!!

Ok, during work, there was these 2 white guys, they came in to buy beer, they sat their beer on the counter and walked away. There was a line forming, so they would have to get back in line. Anyways, this black guy was next and the white guys decided to cut in front. The black guy got sooooo angry that he wanted to kick some ass. Anyways, the white guys started to argue back, I screamed at them to leave. They didn't listen, so I ran to the side, grabbed a broom and threaten to kick their ass if they didn't leave. One of the guys were about to pull out a knife. I told him this while he was concocking(SP?) that, "I wouldn't do that if I was you, see the camera, you would waste a good 3 years of your life just for notthing, now get out of my fucking store". They stayed a little longer and the white guy called the black guy a nigger....the white guys left screaming, "we won, 2 against one" the black guy went outside and you can hear them say, "If you follow us we are gonna stab you fuckers". After that whole conflict, I went behind the counter and began to cry. Man, I was so nervous after, so much adrelaline(SP?) and the whole nervousness of conflicts made me freak out....well thats all, laters.

This is my life......

Sun, 01 May 2005 09:48:38 GMT

My job at arco is working fine, I managed to not fear the people, and become a good people person/cashier.

I might be losing my job though, the owner sold the store and everybody is gonna lose their jobs. I need to job hunt again....I don't understand why I have the worst luck in finding jobs.

I visited Aaron again, he was really nice and friendly as usuall, oh and sarcastic...I think he doesn't like me...so, I'm just gonna be his friend. I am bound to die alone, and I want to die at the age of 28.
I woulnd't mind having a child.....but, I probably won't have one. I can't see my future.

I can see the musician thing working out fine. I can see a really good future in that, but finding love and having a family, nope. I guess, this is my path, I guess thats why I have the worst luck in guys.

My parents plan to kick me out of the house while they go on vacation to Cancun on May 18. They don't trust me for some reason...I feel awfull. I might have to get a hotel for 2 weeks.

I've been going to a loan office class and I'm learning how to become a loan officer. My friend and I want to be loan officers so we can make bank. Her mom is helping us out. Then we can make money and buy a house.
I feel, unloved..........Idon't understand why people don't get me. I guess I am weird...and I am going to roam the earth as a lonely bean.

...............................why does my life suck?
I wished somebody stomach hurted while they were thinking of me.....hrm...

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 07:37:22 GMT

I think I am happier than I use to be......=D........my bite mark is still there, makes my skin look even weirder...yuch.

Skirt goes up, skirt goes down, skirt goes up, skirt goes down..thats what happened with my skirt today. Resident Evil outbreak files 2.....nice.

Reserved Kingdown Hearts 2.

Bought Pete Yorn album....I LOVE IT!!!

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 11:58:02 GMT

I'm soooo tired, yes tired.

Hrm, why are sagitarrius so hard to talk to?

The Kinks rock.

working, standing up, is hard on the feet.

I love my guitar solo

Lock, Stock and two smoking barrels is a cool movie.

I want to apply at the mall again.

This is cool, I had band practice at my house, so they left their insturments at my house, that includes: a drum kit, bass, guitar, tamborine and keyboard. I'm having a joy just playing with them all.

My hair is growing, I'm so happy.

I need to lose weight, blah, whatever, I shall not procrastinate.

the feather

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 16:05:52 GMT

Morning to all....I'm awake, eversince the telephone rang, it's like 9:02AM...and my internet is still on. Watching the killers video "mr Brightside"....lovely video. Gosh, another gig in 2 weeks, I hope this one is better than the last one..hehe. Not much to say, talk to ya later.

New music with wine

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 09:23:34 GMT

I drank some Irish rose wine and was particially buzzed, when I came up with a rad song.

I like messing around with my keyboard, make some kind of retro sound with my songs

I made some comics, some short skits ..hehe, they are really funny. I won't post them though, Blah has my scanner

I'm tired, and sick...I wish I was just tired.

"What about my beans?"

"Don't Go" is really a good song.

Sad

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 07:41:39 GMT

Mitch Hedberg is dead. I didn't hear about until recently. Man, I remember hearing about him last summer on Comedy Central. I also have it downloaded, its like 20minutes. Talking like him after my introduction to Mitch that same week was fun to do too. He was only 37 years old. I will grieve, because he was a awesome comedian....I wonder if it was O.D or maybe some kind of alcohol poisening??

He will be missed. =*(

I just got a job, at ARCO AMPM...it's ok.

Man, if Craig would die, I would burst into tears....hrm. I hate death.

Sitll getting over the hangover.......and lack of sleep.

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 07:42:01 GMT

MY FIRST GIG WAS ON MARCH 19, but preparing for it at the last minute was really tough. If you want to read about it, just click on the LJ cut and read. It's pretty long, but, really fun to read (I think..hehe). <3

Man oh man, do I have a tale to tell. First off, I'll start with March 18, our band players were assholes and decided to back off. We called up some guys that decided to play with us at our gig at the last minute. This guy named mark was being asshole and he kept asking us to buy him a bass...we fucking kicked his ass out. Then came Cameron, he is cool, but following the EMO crowd, decided to go home too. This one guy we barely meet named Benjamin AKA Jerm (we gave him a nickname) he came along with those dudes, they never hangout with him before, Jerm didn't even know Mark and Cam...so ya know, he was cool. He is only 16, but is fucking the best guitarist!!!! He learned out songs in like 2 hours, and he stayed with us, didn't want to be EMO and was cool with liz and myself.

Oh, my new nick name is MICKEY. Here is the tale on that, we went to a liquor store, I had to fake ID and went to go buy some alcohol for Liz and Jerm. Well, I bought a 40 mickey, I didn't know what they wanted....and I am a dumbass. So, yeh, thats how I got the new nickname MICKEY. Liz and Jerm got drunk, I didn't get to get drunk, I lost to paper rock and sissors bet and yeh. We stayed at the parking lot at the billards for like 4 hours. Talking, laughing, having some fun. Then we hauled ass to dennys to share a breakfast, where we meet this waiter named Brian who had the FUNNIST smile in the whole world. It was a chessy fake smile...one only a man who worked at "It's a small world after all" ride at Disney land. The funny thing is, he did really work there..hjahaha.

Anyways, with 2 days with no sleep, we practice all night and then practice all day the next morning. Liz went to work, and I stayed with Jerm. We stayed at my house practicing and listening to good tunes. We were all around Victorville, practicing and selling more tickets. Then we decide to buy a tamborine.

It's 7:00PM and we go on in a hour. We were nervous as fuck. I was nervous as fuck. Liz decides to get drunk before getting onstage, so did Jerm, but he is a good drunk. I was sober, and fucking nervous talking to the mic in a "Craig Nicholls" voice. I even said "Mic one, Mic one having lots of fun Mic two, mic two haha." (People thought I was from Europe) I spoke to everybody in that tone..it was fucking funny. During the gig, Liz forgot the words and went YOKO on us, started to scream and shit. Then after the gig, I walked off pissed off...because we were simi bad. I thought we were, people told us we were different and really good. Meh, I was pissed, I had the rockstar pissed off look. Ignored everybody and walk out of the venue and took everybodys keys and just left. Everybody was looking for me and they found me and I got over it. So, after the Venue, Liz, Jerm, Josh, and myself, decide to go to this diner parking lot where they filmed "Kill Bill 2". We sat and sang "The Smiths" and "Bright Eyes" all night. Then we ended up at the billards. Then we started to drive home. I was in the backseat particially drunk and sleepy, liz was just sleepy and we almost crashed into a house. It was sooooo wrong. We got to my house and the guys sleeped on my bed, I sleeped with my mom and Liz went home. (her mom wanted her home).

The next day, the guys were confused to where they were at. I was in my moms room sleeping and they were stumped that we left them here alone. They even wrote a letter on my computer, read this:

Mickey and Elizabeth-
Josh and Germ have awaken! But to our dismay,
we have been left unatended in Mickey's
house, and the magical transport machine that
we have dubbed the Echo is not in its sacred
resting spot in the driveway. What's a nigga
supposed to do? Mickey's father is working
out in the garage as always, and we are
debating whether or not we should consult him
on any of this. Our verdict for the time
being is 'no'. So we are going to ponder what
each other is pondering and find out some way
to find you two and get poor Josh back to his
car all the way over seas in Tokyo. If you
find this and we aren't here...our emo sides
will have taken over our minds completely and
we went off to kill ourselves. We won't make
a mess *tear, tear, sniff, sniff* But in all
truthfulness, we have no clue where you two
are and would truly like to be reassured that
you're alright. So if we aren't here, we'll
be elsewhere. Probably looking for you. We
will regularly try to return to this scene of
the crime just in case your portal through
time has returned you to this abode.
With sincere hopes to find you soon,
Germ

Well, they found me and I was fucked up. My dad told me that they were looking for me and stuff. We hanged outside and I called Liz, she came like 20 minutes later. We drove josh to car and Jerm stayed with us. We ate, went to church, then drove Jerm home...he lives all the way out at Mountain High. We went to the mountains, chilled, then drove him home. He likes us alot and wants to stay in our band, he didn't want us to go home...it was awesome. We made a very cool friend and we only new him since Friday night. Weird.

I'm still tired, and we promised never to pull that "Last Minute practice" ever again.

This is my experince for my first Venue.

Man, this would be crazy if you guys read this, if you did, please leave a comment.

I'm free.

Wed, 16 Mar 2005 10:08:23 GMT

Feeling loose, I'm loose, nervous, but loose! The gig is is 3 days away. Very happy, alot of my buds are going and after the show, we are going to a party and get slightly drunk. I haven't drank since, mmmm......last march. A whole year...feels good.

We got these boys to be in our band. Jarrod, cameron and Fuzz, they are young (17), hot and very good. We sound very good together and I can't wait for the first gig.

Oh, yeh, Aaron, he tried to impress me today. Saying he knew Gwen Stepany, the chick from No Doubt. He was gonna be in her band..haha. Man, I hate empression. I had the urge to mess up his hair, but he is too tall, like 6 feet or 6"1'. I didn't get the chance to ask him to our show. I want him so badly. I'm like gaga over him. I like the feeling. I feel loose! Oh yeh, he let me call him Craig..hahaha.

BENNY AND JOON is a awesome movie. I agree with the Raisens, what cannabals. (Fuck spelling). Johnny Depp swinging at slow motion in front of the hospital window, priceless. I like his hair in this movie.

Aaron

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 23:51:09 GMT

Ok, this guy that looks like Craig, his name is Aaron. I spoke to him for like 20 minutes..he is awesome. Likes similar music as I do and he is so adorable. His sarcasm is so out there, I just want to chuck a frie into his mouth..haha.

Ok, this is what sucks. He had a girlfriend named Cynthia and he hates that name.........WTF..all the luck, my name is Cynthia. Man, well, oh well, he is gonna have to date another Cynthia. Hahaha.

I had a interview at gamestop. I hope I get the job, I pray to god and I really do hope I get it...really I do. I want the job, so I can be close to Aaron...I really want him too. He loves the beatles. Man, he made me swoon! I fell and picked myself up and then I saw him again at the food court. My friend Elizabeth told me to go to him and I did, but I started talking to Snow, another friend of mine. The cool thing is that he kept looking at me.....=D.

I really, really, really, really want Aaron..and the job. I'm gonna pray now.

God, Please I really want the job at gamestop. I really really want the job. I really want Ryan too. Please God, I beg you to help me out by getting this job. I'm tired on being a squater at my parents house..I really need a job so I can get a loan with my friend and move to our own house..please god. Thank you for listening to me today. Amen.

redeming my vido.

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 23:09:29 GMT

I have a interview at GameStop..do you know how badass that is. Not just that, but there is some guy that works there who looks like Craig Nicholls. I mean same face shape and everything. He is a dork, kind of loner guy, the usual worker for gamestop. I want to work there so I can change him. He would be mine and I will change him for my own doing. I've seen him like 3 times already, once at the college, once at the BookStore and the last time at Gamestop. I was like Hell yes, there goes my "why am I staring at him?" man. His hair is lighter..I wonder if he would let me color his hair a darker shade of brown...???
Oh, when I went up to him to talk to him, he got soooo nervous and shy. He was all like "Whats up?" and he looks down smiling, biteing his lip. Thats the only time I talked to him. He is really shy, and looks like Craig, man, I love it. I love shy guys. I so want this guy. Until I get the real Craig...hahahahha.

Wow the show only 2 weeks away and a 45 minute session, this is out of control.

I want that job at Gamestop, I will have that job at gamestop. God will help me out. I pray to him everynight for this. Amen. I love you god!!

Wed, 02 Mar 2005 09:41:04 GMT

Got a gig on the March of 19. Been really busy. Got a whole group together, it consist of these people:

Elizabeth (Singer/bass)
Cynthia (Lead guitarist)
Ricky (Guitarist/lead)
Matt (Drummer)

this is gonna rule. We have 4 songs fully finish, and we have to cover a 20 minute gig. So, if we don't have time, we will have to play some cover songs. I've been writing all the tab lately...I'm brain fried..oh, here comes Craig Nicholls, he shall congratulate me on this. "he loves me, he loves me"..hehe. Sand, it's sand.

I found a Metal distortion paddle in my brothes room and a wah paddle. They are tight, I still have the grundge one...nice. We all have tails, but mine is light and fuzzy and I don't say badder than worst.

Sun, 20 Feb 2005 05:55:12 GMT

Unlimited Ammo for a Rocket Laucher.....^_^.

1,000,000 PESETAS????!!!!!!!! FORGET IT!

You wanna be witty man with boring post.

Fri, 18 Feb 2005 13:05:08 GMT

People seem to like the same things nowadays, how fucking boring. "Laughing at the things that people display, is my worth my time and my pain". Geez, thats what I call a lyric, I wrote it myself. It shows how utterly insignificant I can be. tee hee. I don't know why some people can be obsessive over some things, I don't get obsessed over anything, I fuck around alot (Mentally), thats my problem. I fuck around to the point where I don't care, and make the subject go mad. Perferably, mad at me. =D

Listening to Orcheastrated music is awesome. Especially Medicine man. Enja is awesome so is Enigma. Very relaxing. Midnight Cowboy theme kicks ass. Learning how to play "do you feel like I do" by Peter Frampton is a pain in the butt, but I'm getting better. Man, I learned to play Stairway to Heaven. I can do it.

Tifas Orcheastrated theme is so much better than the video game version. It's softer and can out beat Aeris theme...and I hate Aeris. Tifa powns. My favorite song by Veggie Tales is "Barbara Manatee". I think everybody should download the whole soundtrack of Velvet goldmine. "Ladytron" is a beautiful song, so is "2hb", then again, just buy the soundtrack, took me 2 weeks to get all the songs. Now that I notice, at this very second, those 2 songs were performed by The Venus Furs....they kick ass now.

I want to re-do underpressure, a duet with another band. I can picture the video in my head. It would rule. (It's not like the original version needs some changeing....I just want to remake it..duh).

DJ and her Hairspray is retarded, I hope she gets her eyes and it blinds her for her vanity.

DANCE MONKEY DANCE!! TILL YOUR WIT AND WANNABE COOLNESS FALLS OFF YOUR ARSE AND YOUR OVERRUN THOUGHTS OF DIEING ACTUALLY DOES KILL YOU AND YOU WISH YOU COULD HAVE DONE BETTER, DUMBUM U.